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Using Psychedelic Drugs in Your Search for Healing & Truth: Why It’s a Bad Idea

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Throughout human history, the use of psychedelic drugs has been enormously popular.  Because humans feel that their earthsuits are a central part of their existence, they have always been intensely fascinated by anything which evokes strong sensations in their earthsuits.  A strong shot of caffeine can quickly result in an improved mood and a higher level of energy—what’s not to like about that?  The right kind of sexual stimulation can result in an intense orgasm, and many humans find themselves addicted to that particular kind of rush, while others prefer a good massage or a terrifying movie.  Just as you can cause your car’s engine to rev by pressing down on the accelerator while you’re in a neutral gear, there are many ways that you can rev your earthsuit.  You can stimulate it physically, sexually, emotionally or mentally.  And once you rev one area, the others will be affected as well.  But here’s where we come to the important question: what’s the value in intentionally jolting your earthsuit?  What’s the value of revving your car’s engine while it’s in a neutral gear?  Because you’re not in drive, you’re not moving forward, you’re just forcing the machine to exhaust itself by going through useless motions.  What happens if you keep the accelerator pressed all the way down while the car is stuck in neutral?  Eventually you’ll do damage to the machine, because cars were designed for specific purposes and they have limitations.  If you don’t respect those purposes or those limitations, you’ll end up permanently damaging the car until it can no longer do what it was designed to do.  In the same way, if you don’t respect the purposes or limitations of the earthsuit God has given you and if you go through life forcing it to rev just because you can, you will end up permanently damaging it.  Read more of this post

The Mindset of Trauma Rehearsal: Trying to Acclimate to the Unbearable

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Trauma is initially created by a lack of debriefing.  It wasn’t just that you experienced something overwhelmingly negative—it was that you were prevented from being able to emotionally depressurize immediately afterward.  It is the absence of debriefing or processing which turns upsetting experiences into crippling traumas.  Heather and Kim are  good examples of this.  Both women had terrifying drowning experiences when they were girls.  But in Heather’s case, she was able to run to a caring mother, cry it all out, and receive both sympathy and help in gaining a new perspective of her experience.  While she was being held underwater, unable to breathe, Heather was terrified.  Her mind was leaping to all kinds of overwhelming conclusions, such as the brother who she trusted was maliciously holding her under.  As Heather’s mother talks her through these feelings and helps her understand that her brother was not trying to harm her, overwhelming fears are put to rest, and Heather is able to quickly recover.  Read more of this post

Monster in Uniform: Recovering from Your Own Immoral Acts (Help for Christians in Law Enforcement & the Military)

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When you are not the one who has been assigned the task of finding and stopping a serial killer who is on the loose, then it’s very easy to see where the moral lines of interrogation tactics lie. But when it’s your friend’s wife who just got raped and slaughtered by some psycho on a bender, and you are now in a room with a smart aleck who obviously knows some critical information that could help you find and stop the killer, suddenly it seems totally justifiable to start putting the screws to him. When it’s your city that has been chosen for a terrorist attack and you’ve been told that it’s on you to keep the people safe, it suddenly becomes very hard to keep your cool when you’re questioning a known member of the terrorist cell. When it’s your officer who is being held hostage, or when it’s your soldier who is getting tortured somewhere, then suddenly time becomes something that you can’t afford to waste. And since it is a well-known fact that pain is a very useful way to extract information from people, suddenly you see yourself crossing lines that you never thought you’d cross. In the heat of the moment, you’ve got the moral excuse to justify your merciless behavior. But once the crisis is resolved and you have time to think about the depths to which you sank, suddenly you start feeling really disturbed about who it is you became. Read more of this post

Overcoming the Guilt of Failing to Protect

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Maybe you are the mother who looked away for a moment and your child was kidnapped. Maybe you are the father who was forcibly restrained by thugs and made to watch while your daughter or wife was ravaged. Maybe you are the coach who failed to act when one of your kids was trying to tell you how bad things were getting at home. Maybe you are the older brother who lost track of your sister at a party and didn’t realize she was getting raped in a back room. Maybe you were the leader of a military op that went south and now some of your guys are critically wounded. Maybe you are the law enforcement officer who failed to give your partner the cover he needed. Maybe you are the fireman who got distracted and didn’t see the debris bury your partner. Maybe you are the father who didn’t pick up on the signs that your daughter was getting molested by her teacher. Maybe you are the bodyguard who got nailed from behind and the person you were supposed to protect was dead by the time you woke up. Maybe you are the babysitter who was rocking out to music and didn’t hear your young charge calling for help until it was too late. Whatever the details of your particular situation, failing in the role of protector can result in some very intense, life stopping, health destroying guilt. If this is where you are at, then you are in a crisis, and that crisis needs to be dealt with. God does not want you to spend the rest of your life stuck in the past. He doesn’t want you clinging to the lies that you can’t get past this, or that it’s wrong for you to stop feeling bad, or that the people you’ve hurt have now become your masters in life. So let’s get into it. Read more of this post

Repentant Sinners: Is it wrong to stop feeling bad about the past?

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Let’s say you do something bad—really bad. You knew better, and you had plenty of resources to resist the temptation, but it was one of those moments where you just said, “Shut up, God, I’m doing this.” So you did it. And it was bad. And now some other people are really messed up because of what you did. But then you reached the point of sincere repentance. You stopped with the rebellion and you are now back in alignment with God, sincerely wanting Him to have His way in your life. There are now consequences for what you did in your life and in the lives of others. And in the midst of those consequences, you feel really terrible. You just feel perpetually awful about what you did. Well, isn’t this how you’re supposed to feel? After all, you sinned intentionally. So if you did something super bad, isn’t there supposed to be some limit to how joyful you can ever be after that? If you just go skipping forth in joyous freedom, isn’t that another form of sin? This is what many Christians believe: they think that once someone does something bad enough, it’s wrong for that person to ever make a full recovery, let alone soar to epic heights of soul peace and freedom. Well, what does God say? Read more of this post

Help for Murderers: What To Do When Your Victims Are Haunting You

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You took a life. Maybe it was accidental. Maybe it was on purpose. Maybe you were trying to help. Maybe you were being malicious. Either way, the aftermath of such events can be far worse than you ever expected. Some murderers are plagued with horrific nightmares in which their victims play a central role. Others see ghosts of their victims in their waking hours. Others keep having flashbacks from the murder sequence. You walk into a room and see the woman you killed lying there with your knife in her back. You’re trying to make dinner and suddenly those tomatoes are the bloody remains of the baby you aborted. You’re driving and that little boy you killed suddenly appears standing in the road in front of you. You’re standing there trying to think and you feel your buddy tap you on the shoulder—the same one you turned around and knifed because you thought he was someone else. You’re in bed at night and you hear a voice saying she’ll get back at you for what you did. You fall asleep and have terrifying dreams of your victim leaping upon you with vengeful hate. What does all of this mean? Are you losing your sanity? No, you’re not, but there are definitely some issues that need to be dealt with. Victim hauntings are terrifying things and they will send your stress levels soaring through the roof and stop your ability to function until they’re dealt with. So how can we get the dead to stop hounding you? First we need to clear up some false beliefs you have about the dead. Then we need to talk about you and God. He has positive reasons for letting this whole terror package happen to you, and once you get aligned with His program, you’re going to find yourself in a much better place. So let’s get started. Read more of this post

Help For Murderers: Finding Peace With A God Who Loves You

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You took a life. You murdered. Maybe you killed just one person, maybe you killed several, maybe you killed many. Maybe your victim was still in the womb and not even born. Maybe your victim was very young, very old, weak, or in some way defenseless. Maybe you assaulted them first.  Maybe you tried to make them suffer as much as possible.  Maybe you knew them and they trusted you. Maybe you killed to get accepted by someone or prove your courage or defend your country or get revenge or find peace or protect yourself or save your reputation or make some money. Maybe you told yourself it was okay to kill at the time because you were trying to be merciful, or because you were righting the scales of justice, or because you were just doing your duty. In this world, the circumstances and motives for murder vary widely. Some kill by accident, some kill intentionally. Some act on impulse, others carefully plan their movements far in advance. Some actually do the killing, while others play assisting roles. Whatever your particular role was in the murder you committed, the question now is: how do you get right with God? Does God forgive murder? Is there any way to get out from under the brick load of guilt, or have you fallen under some kind of Divine curse which will prevent you from ever experiencing soul peace and joy?

Of course God forgives murder. And if you find within yourself a sincere desire to be pleasing in God’s sight, then there is great hope for you. You are not lost, nor are you cursed. You are standing at a fork in the road, and there is a choice you need to make. One path leads to peace with God, the other leads to bitter despair. God is calling you down the road that leads to Him, and in this post, we’ll give you the information you need to respond to His call. Read more of this post

Overcoming Shame

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When humans feel deeply ashamed, their instinctive response is to separate and isolate themselves from all others. Often physical isolation isn’t practical. You have to go to work to pay the bills. You have a spouse and kids living in your home. But though you feel forced to physically be around other people, you can still emotionally isolate yourself by refusing to engage. Your wife asks what’s wrong and you give her that indifferent shrug. When she presses you, you stonewall her with, “I’m fine,” or “I don’t want to talk about it.” And for the person drowning in shame, talking about their misery does seem pointless. After all, words can’t change the past. No, they can’t, but they can save your present and future, and that is far more important. Read more of this post

Accepting the Mercy of God

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The term Divine judgment is strongly associated with punishment in our minds. When we picture God acting as a Judge, we tend to think of Him glaring down at us with some disapproving scowl. We expect Him to swiftly find fault with us and then break out some frightening forms of discipline. It is the belief that God is an intimidating, hard to please Judge that causes many guilt ridden souls to shut down their prayer lives and avoid talking about the sins they have committed. Often we fall into the trap of thinking that if we try to bring up certain subjects with God, He’ll unload on us in some terrifying manner and confirm His disgust with us in a way that will crush our hearts. But is this really the case? Read more of this post

Spineless in the Face of Death: Encouragement for Christians Who Have Publicly Disowned Christ

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If someone starts sawing your leg off and they say that they won’t stop unless you deny Christ, guess what? You’re going to deny Christ. Naturally your ego doesn’t want to believe this is true, but your ego is delusional. It doesn’t matter how high of a tolerance for pain you think you have. It doesn’t matter how many hideous experiences you’ve already endured in your life. Breaking you down is extremely easy to do because you cannot escape the fact that you are a human being and all humans are weak. We are not only weak, we are spineless cowards. We are faithless, self-serving weenies who are more than willing to trash those we love in order to save our own necks. Some of you will refuse to accept this truth about yourselves until you are forced to. But others of you have recently provided the world with a fresh reminder of what humans aren’t made of by utterly crumbling under pressure and publicly denying your Savior in order to save your own neck.  Now you’re drowning in self-loathing and shame. If this is where you’re at, this post is for you. Read more of this post